Conflicted

What mama tells me, what I've learned from this fucking reality and how the world works... Now I'm conflicted with them!

They're suffocating and confusing me!

Behind the scars, it's impossilble for me to go back and be such an easy girl as I was before.
Cause I realize that the way I was always brings me to bad, wrong guys even worsens situations.

The only thing I know is that I'm not what I am, I'm shaped and changed gradually by many different values.
Worst of all, they're so contradictory that I don't even know what to do. I've lost myself.

All the things I deserve is being such a good girl, and it's assuredly undoubted!