Do you love the way I am??!!

很久以前，曾經在書上看過，一段很棒的感情，無論是否有結果，你都會由衷的喜歡對方喜歡的你自己！

說的直白點，透過對方的眼裡心底，你會更喜歡這樣的自己！

但是，萬一對方一直將他的關心關注關愛，一股腦兒的傾倒給我們呢？
「我不想要妳被別人講話，妳被說話，我會心痛！」
「如果有一天我不在妳身邊，妳萬一被騙了、受到傷害了……我會擔心！」
可是我根本就不在乎別人講什麼！我只要不傷害到別人，對喜歡的人事物還有該盡的責任，盡心盡力就好！
「可不可以要有長進？！」26歲的我，竟被講得如此幼稚差勁！

於是，對方希望我們能調整、修正自己，因為唯有如此，以後結婚了，兩人生活在一起了，才能更加的圓滿…？

可是漸漸的，我越來越不喜歡自己，因為我發現，在對方的心裡，我不是個賢慧的正常女人，在他眼中，我好像只剩下粗心、散慢，容易受騙上當的蠢蛋。
以往我有的那些特質，再也引不起他的興趣，因為他只想要兩人共同成長、進步，讓我不再脫序脫線，要有所長進！！

我只想要舒舒服服的過日子，不想要時時刻刻，戰戰兢兢的注意自己，是不是又快遲到了？約會的資料是否準備齊全？啊~他生氣了，我要馬上收起笑臉道歉……

從前那個快樂的我不見了，我開始討厭自己。

有時候忍不住會想，就找個人包養或是乾脆當個倍受寵愛又沒人管的小三，至少這樣沒有包袱沒有責任，沒有被push的壓力！
這樣的想法是很下賤、很作賤自己，至少這樣比較輕鬆愉快，生活愜意自在無比！

這個世界上，真的有完全純粹輕鬆愉快的感情嗎？

你真的喜歡原本的我嗎？

Slack off

忙碌充實的暑假泳訓班，終於結束了！

每天忙得不可開交，焦頭爛額，常常一回家就倒地不起，像一坨爛泥巴般癱軟在地上，完全無力爬起來！！

也因此，對於忠實記錄生活，好好寫網誌這事兒，也懈怠鬆懈了！實在無法分身乏術，多花心思腦力，多擠出任何一點隻字片語！

幸好，忙到爆炸的生活總算over，我要好好收拾疲軟，努力的寫寫寫了！！

不管有沒有人關注在乎，在這一方小角落裡，我一定會努力用力活得燦爛、精彩而美麗！

Another day.

Lie to me, say that you need me

That's what I wanna hear

That is what, what makes me happy

Hoping you'll be near

All this time, how could I know

Within these walls, I can feel you



Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why

You made me feel good, made me smile

I see it now, and I, can say it's gone

That would be a lie

Cannot control this, this thing called love



You must think, how can this be

You don't really know me

I can't tell, this ain't the time

You'll never be mine

What can I say, something 'bout my life

I just lost again



Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why

You made me feel good, made me smile

I see it now, and I, can say it's gone

That would be a lie

Cannot control this, this thing called love



Always have to move on,

To leave it all behind

Go along with time



Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why

You made me feel good, made me smile

I see it now, and I, can say it's gone

That would be a lie

Cannot control this, this thing called love


天天天天


說些謊話吧！就說你需要我

那是我想聽的話

只有這些話才能讓我敢要快樂

希望你近在咫尺

這些時日，不知為何

身在重重的高牆中，我仍能感覺到你的存在


日復一日的過，不知道為什麼

你就是能讓我覺得好，讓我展顏歡笑

如今我才明白，但是，一切都已消逝

也許是個謊言 不能自己，這就叫愛


你 一定在想，怎麼會這樣

你是不真的了解我

我不知道 是否時候已到

你將不再屬於我

我又能說什麼？我的生命中的漣漪

我再度失去的愛情


日子總是要繼續過下去

所有的悲傷拋諸腦後

只有時光隨行

For my secret lover and soul mate deep inside; you deserve to be tagged in the "Love" section.**

The great escape.

我最怕看到媽咪兒臉皺得跟包子一樣，以痛苦至極的神情求著我，「好心吶~看看妳爸爸做得快死了，我也累得快死了…！」


然後，我的心就會揪成一團，像是千刀萬剮般難過，我能感覺到心在淌血！


我比誰都還希望，自己是男生，學個一技之長，水電、裝潢、模具…像爸比一樣，有能力有肩膀承攬工程，雖然辛苦雖然粗重勞累，但可以為這個家賺得很多錢，撐起這個家；
我比誰都還希望，家中兩老不要再做得要死要活，多麼想要他們也能享享清福！！


可是很抱歉，我只能待在泳池，盡我所能的幫忙你們顧守、下水授課，分擔你們一點點的疲勞…。


為什麼只跟我一個人抱怨訴苦呢？！
為什麼只有我承受這樣的壓力？！
是不是因為家裡四個小孩中，只有我有這樣的能力和興趣，所以就可以把我體貼孝順的心，看成是理所當然？！


明年就要到了，我知道我一定會走出自己的路，不再被誰羈絆！！


One day, I'll definitely make my own great escape and I know that day's coming soon!!!

Our California king bed.

Chest to chest,
Nose to nose,
Palm to palm, we were always just that close,
Wrist to wrist,
Toe to toe,
Least it felt like an inside of a rose,

So how come when i reach out my fingers
It feels like more then distance between us
In the california king bed went in thousand miles apart
I've been california wishing on these stars from your heart for me, my california king

Eye to eye,
Cheek to cheek,
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me,

Arm in arm,
Dusk to dawn
Curtains drawn and a little last night on these sheets

So how come when i reach out my fingers
It feels like more then distance between us
In the california king bed
Were ten thousands miles apart
I've been california wishing on these stars from your heart for me, my california king

Just when i felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch and that made everything feel better and even then my eyes got wetter
Someone thinks they wanna ask you if you love me but i don't wanna see so weak
I've been california dreaming

In the california king bed
Were ten thousands miles apart i bet california wishing on these stars from your heart for me, my california king
....my california king
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in the california king bed went in thousand miles apart i bet california wishing on these stars from your heart for me, my california king


I wanna go on but it seem there's a gap between us cause we're such different kind of people....