It really sux!!!

真的快被那群馬來西亞人氣瘋了！賤死了啦＞＜”

這次的交易是我們先幫他們墊錢，付物流和一些報關的費用～
我好聲好氣，非常有禮貌又誠懇的請他們收到發票明細和要匯款之前，一定要通知我～
第一次發信給他們，沒回音……
第二次，還是不甩我～（…）

總經理一直問我，「欣綾啊，馬來西亞那邊匯款了沒？」
我只能沒好氣、無奈又無力的據實以報～（龜）

結果頭頭看不下去，親自出馬寫信給對方～
沒想到對方立刻回信、匯款～！（驚）

幹他媽的咧～
我一個小小的業務助理就不鳥我，主管寫信就立即把事做好～～也不是勢利成降的啊？！（操）

雖然我只是個小小的業助，但對外我也是代表我們公司啊～
而且搞清楚，你們是欠錢的那方欸＞＜＃
對個業助就不理不睬的，我就不信這家公司還能持久到哪裡去……（哼）

壓力真的很大～
因為客戶那邊沒回應，而老闆又一直問～靠！！死馬來貘～（ＧＹ）

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同一天晚上，我和妹妹在臺北站前逛街～
看到一個衣衫襤褸的老人，口齒十分不清的兜售著玉蘭花～
我經過兩次，都沒有人上前跟他買～

後來真的覺得他很可憐，於是我就去捧他的場，雖然我也不知道我買玉蘭花要幹嘛～（汗）

一串25塊大洋，嗯，這裡是臺北市嘛，難免比較貴，但還可以接受～
打開皮包，只剩下一張老孫欸！（大汗）
我真的沒有要買那麼多，所以我想說買個兩串，請他找我50元～

其實我心裡有個預感，他不會找我錢…因為我以前也曾經遇到不找錢的人～！
於是我有點猶豫的遞錢，他看出我的猶豫，立刻很大聲的操著臺語說，「到底要不要拿來啊？！是不買逆？！」很像流氓！
我跟妹都嚇到了，因為他不是口齒很不清晰嗎？！（驚）

「呃，我真的沒有要買那麼多，可不可以請找我50塊？」我驚魂未定。
沒想到他火速的硬塞給我4串，惡狠狠的瞪著我大聲說，「不要怪我這裡貴啦，是因為源頭很貴……」他凌厲的眼神真的把我跟妹嚇壞了～
聽他連珠炮似、流利的解釋著為什麼他賣得有點貴……
我真的很驚訝也很沮喪，因為他之前口齒不清的模樣，讓我以為他是瘖啞人士～

至少他也從頭裝到尾，降子我掏錢才掏得更心甘情願嘛！！
真的真的很沮喪，為什麼總是會有這些人，利用別人的愛心呢？！
突然間，玉蘭花不香了………

就是有這些人，讓我們的社會越來越冷漠，因為在我們心裡升起憐憫心，要對他們伸出手的同時，心底就有另一個聲音響起：「這是騙人的！」
於是原本要伸出的手，又縮了回去，人們又打消了行善了念頭～～

我還是很高興，是我有能力付出，今天在街上叫賣的人不是我～
真不知道我的愛心還能持續到何時～（唉）

怎麼覺得今天特別龜？！

I don't believe in love and men.

之前的他，是人人尊敬、親友之間有名專情的傢伙～
為了在國外的他的她，守著多年的情感～
但是，就在我倆相遇的時候，瓦解了～

之前的之前的他，我們很穩定，好像就快看到那屬於兩人的未來了…
但無奈的是，我究終還是比他愛我來得愛他～
什麼簡簡單單，只有你愛我我愛你的感情，到最後還不是因為有一方的冷落或是無所謂，把愛推向終點～

其中有一段插曲，有一個男生喜歡上當時已有男友的我，後來在他交了女友之後，他還是喜歡我，和我出去～

高中時短短二個多月的班對，那個男生在分手後立刻對其他女生下手～

還有曾經在課堂上溫馨的談起他的另一半，陪他一起打拚，從無到有～
後來，在車上匆匆結束太太的電話，搓揉著我的手．．．

講這些並不是在炫耀我很有行情，或是我有多行！！（因為他們即不多金也不帥氣＞＜”）

我承認每段都有美好的過程和愉快的回憶！！
但回首這一切的一切，叫我怎能再相信人類的愛情！

也許我真的很有可能會不婚，因為現在的我，打從心底不信任愛情～
我不相信男人，會一直愛著同一個女生，而且熱度濃度不會遞減～
一定會隨著時間的流逝漸漸消磨掉～

那我自己呢？

反觀自己的每一段戀愛，都是等到對方變質出問題後，自己不得已才退出或是掉頭就走～
我不是悲劇英雄，但我始終都是愛到不能再愛的那一個人～
所以，我還算有資格寫下這些言論吧！

男人不可能一直愛著同一個女人！

就算以後我會嘲笑這篇文章，但可以確定的是，”結婚”這個字眼，除了令我害怕，也讓我由衷的不屑它（呸）。

Lost in Taipei city... T_T

V：「先生先生！不好意思，請問一下中正紀念堂在哪裡？」

路人甲：「就在這裡啊...」（嘴巴闔不起來）

V：（汗）

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V：「小姐小姐，不好意思，請問捷運龍山寺往哪裡走？」

路人乙：「就在妳旁邊。」

V：（大汗）

路人乙OS：這人是神經病嗎？


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這兩個禮拜都去臺北市上課，大安區那裡～

想說跟臺北混熟一點好了，試著喜歡這城市，畢竟我是在臺北市出生的嘛～！

結果幾乎天天迷路＞＜”！

原本目的地是捷運大安站，有一次竟然莫名其妙跑到師大去了！！
昨天更扯，騎一騎發現路牌寫著，「松山機場．．．」（大驚）

臺北市，什麼鳥啊？！
靠，超多路都是單向道，不迷路才怪咧！！
而且因為到處都很熱鬧，所以對我而言，每棟高樓大廈、每條馬路、每個街景都長得一模一樣～（大汗）

不管怎麼樣就是跟她不合～～
好挫敗好頹喪，在東區困在計程車陣中的我，眼淚就快飆出來了．．．（嘆）

耶誕夜，一個人在臺北市亂闖亂繞…找不到路回去，停在路邊的我，好沮喪好沮喪……（唉）

It's doleful, isn't it...

Once you turn your head away from her;
Once you strength out your hands to me;
Once you cover your lips on mine;
Once you warm me with your temperature;
Once you start looking at me into your eyes;
Once you cannot help talking heart to heart with me;
Once you share your secrets with me;
Once you slide into my life deeply;
Once you hug me tightly and firmly;
Once you touch me gently;
Once you step into the room that no guys have been to except him;
Once you and I cannot stop being obsessed psychically and physically by each other;
Once you make up your mind splitting your heart into two parts and give the bigger one to me;

It means that you cannot go back;
the distances between you and she, he and I are getting longer and longer;
the gaps between you and she, he and I are getting deeper and deeper;
the memories of you and her, I and him are still there but fading out;
and we are falling into the trials we make and falling to pieces.
We aren't able to find a way out and stuck in this unbreakable square and nowhere to go.

Eventually, we become very weak and very inconsolable and creeping toward Him to beg him to have mercy on us.

Every human being even the sinners who want to repent deserves love and forgiveness.

In spiritually, the Cross that He burdens with gives us repentance and braveness and forgives our sins.
But in fleshly, we have to suffer from the painfulness and mend by our own.

Somehow I'm just feeling sad after read your post.

What we have experienced is so impressive and unforgettable but it’s also doleful, isn’t it…??

【V song】Infatuation by Maroon5

Baby, I don't want to spend my life on trial
For something that I did not do
And maybe if you stopped and looked around some time
I wouldn't pass right by you

Maybe it's because you are so insecure
Maybe your pain don't care
Maybe it's the chase that really gets me off
I fall so when it's just not there

Burn another bridge, break another heart
Try again, it will only fall apart

Infatuation
Not seeing the rest of you is getting the best of me
It's such a shame that you shot me down
It would have been nice to be around
I'm touching your skin
If it's only a fancy, then why is it killing me?
I guess this must be infatuation (I want it?)

Try to put my finger on what burns me up
It always seems to escape me
And when you have decided that you've had enough
Just tell me where I need to be

Now her face is something that I never had
To ever deal with before
She left me with the feeling that she'd had enough
And I'm the one wanting more

Burn another bridge, break another heart
Try again, it will only fall apart

Infatuation
Not seeing the rest of you is getting the best of me
It's such a shame that you shot me down
It would have been nice to be around
I'm touching your skin
If it's only a fancy, then why is it killing me?
And I guess this must be infatuation (I want it?)

I'm so attracted to you
The feeling's mutual too
And I get scared the moment you leave
Get so hot I forget to breathe, yeh

Infatuation
Not seeing the rest of you is getting the best of me
It's such a shame that you shot me down
It would have been nice to be around
I'm touching your skin
If it's only a fancy, then why is it killing me?
I guess this must be infatuation (I want it?)
Ooh (I want it?)
Ooh (I want it?)
Yeh? (I want it?)

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因為這首歌，讓我認識到”infatuation”這個迷人的單字～

歌詞的意境有一種曖昧的美，我特別愛「If it's only a fancy, then why is it killing me?
I guess this must be infatuation」這一段詞兒，就好像是我和高雄的關係一樣…轉眼即逝的這四年，是最真實的fancy...